Shat
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Men
The hidden half of domestic violence
Not Us....But Christ!
Once again, I am sitting at a keyboard,
wanting to reach out to each of you...wanting to share the burden on my heart
but not having the words.
One thing I do know...is that I am fully incapable of doing what we keep seeing
done here in Shattered Men. This ministry is not my hobby....it is my passion.
Last July when I was in the hospital with acute kidney failure, I still found a
way to keep in touch with those in need, I still found a way to minister to
those who were hurting...But I also knew, I was not "needed" here. Not
one moderator is "needed" here...but we are all "wanted"
here. More then ever before, we need to realize it is not us...but Christ! As I
said...I am not able to do this ministry.....I do not have the answers for those
who are hurting but I know who does!
In Joshua chapter three we read: "Sanctify yourselves: for tomorrow the
LORD will do wonders among you." A couple of verses later we see:
"This day will I begin to magnify thee in the sight of all Israel, that
they may know that, as I was with Moses, so I will be with thee."
I wonder....is this the reason we have had the problems recently? Is this why
satan is trying to divide Shattered Men? I do not for a moment think nor do I
want to apply this verse....that GOD will magnify "me" but I do
believe HE intends to magnify Shattered Men so that we can reach more hurting
people and point them to HIM!
I am holding to another verse here too....verse 10
Hereby ye shall know that the living God is among you, and that he will without
fail drive out from before you the Canaanites, and the Hittites, and the Hivites,
and the Perizzites, and the Girgashites, and the Amorites, and the Jebusites We
do have some slight modifications as our enemy are not the Canaanites and the
other nations mentioned here. Our enemies are a corrupt system.
Oh this system may not be totally destroyed but we will see the damage it
can do limited one person at a time. We have seen this very recently....two
precious people are alive today because of Shattered Men. Oh we know it was GOD
using this ministry but you know what I mean. I firmly believe this is why we
have seen some of the recent problems we have seen in the past few days both on
and off the board. Even as a child of GOD...if we are not careful, satan can use
us to discourage another brother or sister without our knowledge or consent.
Often I get IM's, e-mails and phone calls alerting me of problems both on and
off this board. I have to check my motives and ask how will those that are
hurting see my answers? How can I respond to problems between two sides that are
in conflict in a way that both sides will be helped? In reality, I cannot do it.
None of us can. It is not us...but Christ!
I place my trust in Jesus on 10/1/1958. I finally made Him my LORD in Oct 1999.
I had tried to serve the LORD in many ways. None of them worked. The problem is
"I" was doing what I wanted to do to help the LORD. Nothing I did
lasted more then a few months...if that
long. Shattered Men was started on Oct 31, 1999...almost nine years ago. Oh
every once in a while I do think that we are not doing much good but then I will
get an e-mail telling me they know Shattered Men is reaching thousands. I do
know that we get over 1,000 hits each
day on our website and that so far this month over 250 people have looked at the
First Step page and over 25 have printed it out.
http://www.shatterdmen.com/They%20Had%20Been%20With%20Jesus.htm
Still, I must confess something too. Recently in my area there was another
murder/suicide. I did attend a church in our town that has a TV station that
will not recognize this ministry. I have to wonder...if they had this ministry
on their station...would it be possible for these people to have heard about
Shattered Men and said...someone will understand me? There is someone that can
help me? Of course we will never know but my confession is that
Yes...there are times in which I hear people on some well known national
ministries telling about things like baking cookies to make someone
"feel" better and I wonder.... why can Shattered Men not be on
programs like this...after all, we are not just making someone "feel"
better...we are giving them HOPE through Jesus Christ. I do wonder...Lord am I
not doing something right? What am I doing wrong? NO...I do not want to be on
any program to make a name for myself. I only want to exalt ONE person...JESUS.
I do feel however that if more knew about Shattered Men, we can help more.
I would love to be able to have lawyers to actually help some of our people. I
would love to be able to tell people...this counselor will help you...they will
understand your side.
Then once again, I am reminded...it is NOT me....it is NOT Debra, Nannett, Tim
or anyone else....it will not be lawyers, counselors judges or cops...it is
JESUS!
Lawyers will fail us, counselors can lead in the wrong direction...but JESUS
will NEVER FAIL US!
It is not my job to point to lawyers counselors or any other human being... it
is my job to point to the NAILED SCARRED HANDS.
Though it seems that your prayers have been in vain, Though your faith the world
would destroy Though your heart should ache till it breaks in two They that sow
in tears shall reap in joy
They that sow in tears shall reap in joy For God is on HIS throne Though you
pray till it seems that your heart would break They that sow in tears shall reap
in joy
Does your heart fill with doubt when alone you pray? Does the world your soul
adore?
Lift your sight, look beyond, God is standing near They that sow in tears shall
reap in joy
My friend, I believe many here can look forward to bountiful harvest!
Many have come to Shattered Men shattered, with feelings of worthlessness and in
deep despair. They have found that although they were shattered and beyond
repair that the KING was able to put them back together again. Oh the cracks
were still visible. We could see the scars, the wounds still hurt but they
learned to say…don't spare me trouble if it will bring me close to you and
they saw that God could indeed take what was intended for evil and used it for
good. They did not find this healing in us….for it is not I…but CHRIST!
My LORD, I come humbly before You and ask forgiveness for doubting what YOU are
doing in Shattered Men. Forgive me for envying the success of others regardless
of how I feel about the validity of their message. Help me to always remember
that Shattered Men does not belong to me…but to YOU and then to those that we
serve here. Help me to remember that I am only a servant…serving YOU and those
that are here. Help me to remember that the results are not my
responsibility…but YOURS!
My LORD, once again I dedicate this ministry to YOU! We will spend time with You
on YOUR terms not ours. My precious LORD...we ask only one thing…that those
YOU bring to Shattered Men will see YOU in us and that we will represent You in
such a way that it will draw them to YOU.
We empty our self of us…and ask YOU to fill us with YOU.
We humbly ask this in Your precious name……and we thank YOU for the
results as we leave it in YOUR nailed scarred hands.
AMEN
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JUNE is Domestic Violence Against Men Awareness Month